Donathen my love,
I am in the part of the world where we were almost a year ago....and I have to say, life is very hard without you. There is this ache. It is almost unbearable, so I push it and you away. Then, I purposely listen to your songs so I can hear YOU. Sometimes, I get through more than one full song. At other times, I just cannot take the pain of the ache. The me without you "ache." Dying seems like it might be OK because I know you will be waiting for me. I know this. I also know you are not planning to see me anytime soon, and that is ok too. It's just knowing that I will be with you "soon enough" that sometimes gets me through the day.
I think of where you might be.....I am so fucking angry at Sprint. They told me how and where and what I should do with all the paperwork, so I could change your account and just pay to keep your voicemail on....and then what do they do? They take away the ONLY reason I had been paying the bill in the first place. They took away YOUR VOICE. It hurts so much that people just don't fucking care that you wrote them a personal letter explaining who you are, and why you have paid the bill, and I just feel like ripping the heads off of everyone there, but I know it just doesn't matter, because you are never going to come back to me in this life. I have little videos of you. So, that will have to do. And now, I must tell Sprint to go fuck itself and stop paying the bill, but I have gotten disconnected from them 4 times as of last week trying to sort out things, so I am just a little bit disgusted. The fuckers.
NO, Donathen, my love....life on this planet only gets worse and less humane every day without you.
You aren't missing much.
I love love love love love love you. So much.
I ache.
